I have no idea where to turn

I am really conflicted now. AMazing how one phine call can really set you off into so many diffrent emotions all at the same time. Primarly Panic. I am begining to belive the fear that I do not know where I stand at home. Here I am in Williamsburg 900 miles from home, and wondering if I can go back. If Jake and Fozz were with me I probley would not fo a while and see how it plays out. I love the truck and can live on it and run the house from te computer. God knows I have the software to do it. Here I sit having a late lunch a 600 mile drive coming and I am worried about everything but hte road. Damnit I have got to get my head straight in the next hour. I have 54 lives in my hands that are counting on my skills Trucking all I had to worry about was if the damn load shifted. This time it is PEOPLE not hings I have to remember I am carrring. I know I will get my head on straight I always do. I just cannot keep this up. He will havr to accept I cannot always run thehouse from 1000 miles out or be anywhere in Taly in 5 min flat to do something. I almost feel like I am imposing when asking for shopping help or the such. Oh well, such is and has been my life. Time to work for a living to kep him happy.... truth be told, on the road I am keeping me happy