Feeling conflicted

As I sit getting ready for a nice nap, Long drive tonight, I amfeeling worried. THe picyure says it all, it is my first and best skill. I enjoy busses and the groups I work with, however there is a lot of sitting and waiting. Trucks your moving more. Both have there ups and Yes the downs. Right now the best is what I am doing now to see if my body can handle the road again. SO far so good. Having AIDS has it's problems on the road. All the questions such as, what if I get sick in the road, how well can I eat,can I get meds if needed in a hurry. THe most important thing is a company that when I say I have to go home, they send me that way. These are worries that any driver would have, but being POZ makes me hyper aware of it. As it should be. THe other factor is my hubby. He is so good to me in many ways and naturally drives me crazy in others. I can only hope he understands that what I do I do Better than most. That is not being consited, I have the 2.5 millon miles to prove it. So as long as I can drive I WILL HAVE FOOD AND HOUSE AND CLOTHING. IT has been good to me, hard but good. I would never recomend this way of life to anyone. It takes a special breed to run the roads. The Iron Cowboy if you will. The Wolf who does not need the pack to run. IT is lonly, long mile, and faces you oly see once then there gone. Close friends are rare. Friends eho are your fanily are rare as a perfect Diamond. SO to you again those I call family, I hope you know what that means coming from me. So the road is who I am and what I am, it found me and I have been saved by those long miles many times. Yes, I have been beaten up by it, but it is all I know. Even flying planes like I did for a few years is the same thing, just the road is in the sky. A lone Wolf I am and I guess I will always be. To you the other REAL wolf in my life, yes you Boston, You are another Lone WOlf that has had life beat you hard, I am now and always the other Wolf you can run with here, or in the next world. Mabye when it is our times, Jake,Fozz-E, Misha, and Sebastian will run with us as our own pack. I belive we can, and hope that GOD will let us.