Well has been a few of the most interesting weeks. The weekend before this, I went to Boone NC on a ski Trip. Man I hate the cold. In the 5 days I was gone, Tom had a severe slide in health. When I returned on Monday, he was in bad shape. Tues afternoon he was placed in Hospice. Well a few days went by and he got some strength back and was able to realize where he was. As we learned on Thursday, he was as close to passing as he has ever been. Pneumonia had settled in him an was suffering from Oxygen starvation. He is now up to 5 liters and hour for O2 and will probably never get his voice fully back. The heart more than likely has taken on more damage. A trip to the Cardiologist will verify what we already know. Today he is much better and the slow work week has allowed me to be close by all week. Tomorrow is a 12-14 hour local here in Tallahassee. A days pay without going to far out. With any luck and the progress he is making right now, he should be able to come back to the house. We will need more visits to the house for sure. The weakness has progressed and he can no longer stand on his own. All things considered, he is doing well.

A New Year....Finally

Well the New Year has arrived and I hope for the best even though I may finish it alone. Tom's Health has dramatically worsen. Since the Heart Attacks, he was unable to work. No big deal I did as always and took on more weigh so to speak. The given up the Trucking job was real hard. The Company was great to me, knew I was Gay and dealt with it well. Not bad for a Company from Cairo ( Ka-Ro) Georgia. The miles were great and the Truck the best besides my Century Class ST. I still miss her.
Jake and Fozz-E-Bear are getting older and have given up being on the road. Jake I understand. February will be 13 Years I have had him. That makes him about 14 or 15. He was almost and Adult when I got him. Rescue of course. Fozz will be 10 this August.
Tom as mentioned has been not doing well. The list is now up to and including, Congestive Heart Failure, COPD, and a Neurological Disorder that WILL kill him when it hits the spine. Thie name is huge and common in long term Survivors of AIDS/HIV. This Christmas I hosted 14 People for Christmas. Small house and crowded to be sure but the odds are Tom had his last Holiday with Family. That is who was here. The brothers Sisters and there mates, as well as some Children. It was a lot of work but I had a great time. The 3 Days ALL were here reminded me of growing up and the controlled chaos of the Holidays. Got a whole lot of new respect for Mom as well. How she did this every Year for 30 Years I will never know.
Hospice is being good to Tom, however he is making it hard on all. He is showing early signs of Dementia, has been pushing Carl (care taker) and myself away so hard. He even told one Brother he was Single again. I long ago accepted this day was coming. As it gets closer I feel numb. Day to Day is the existence that grats me each morning. I go through the day go to bed and repeat. Tom is all focus outside of my regular Job driving Motor Coaches. In fact work is a release for me. So may say they admire what I am doing and ask how. I tell the truth, There but for the Grace of God go I. That simple. Tom sleeps all the time now. Is on oxygen almost all day. Confined to a Wheelchair now for good.
One day I would like to be able to plan for the future again. Soon maybe