Well it has been way to long for this. Entry seriously overdue.
Things have been riding along as usual. Well for a time anyway.
Shingles, Yup that is it. The doctor tells me. Down for 2 and half weeks with my left eye shut for over 6 days. The best part of it( if you can call it that)was that it looked "COOL" to the neighborhood kids on Halloween. The scabs dropped off and I may wind up with a few scares but it looks as though it will not be a permanent thing.
The few weeks that I was "out" of it for work. I am of course at home doing the Domestic thing. I became aware of some things such as Tom enjoying it when I am gone. People showing up, calling, and phone numbers for people around the house. These numbers show up on the caller I.D when I am gone. I could very easily check his e-mail if I wanted, but that is not my nature and would not be right. It has left me with wondering and wanting. The other night a car pulled in the drive way. A "friend"of Toms' . Well I was on the way out the door and he went in. When I got back from my errand, he was horny as hell. Turns out his friend could not function well, so He turned to me. Nice, I am now an after thought. YEA! I wish I knew what to think or do. I am feeling left behind. Right now the best way I know how to cope is to live as though we share a house. So far it has helped me keep my sanity. I love him more than I can say. I just wish he would tell me what the hell is going on!
I have to be fair in that he had been going through a personal hell right now. The Neuropathy has been getting worse and has led to Vertigo. He falls a lot and is wondering how long he can keep working in his present position. A genuine concern.
It is with hope that I hold to he will eventually lean on me instead of trying to stand alone. Who knows.
Well with me gone now for already 4 days, and another 6 to go. I hope this lets him have time to get it together. We shall see
