Thoughts of Life and the road

 The spirit that backs me up feels like this

 A wonderful Soul, now gone from this world and my life, my precious Jake

 The one thing left in my life that matters

Jake about a week before he passed, he now waits for me at he Rainbow Bridge


The days have gone by and as always life goes on. Jake (my precious baby) left us now two months ago. I had a decision to make and I did. He was in pain and needed my help and oddly my permission to leave. He surprised me by only needing my permission not my help. When I got to the Vet, before she could do anything, he passed in my arms quietly and with my love to take with him to the other side.  I miss him because he was there through so much, My first run in with AIDS, Thom the whole journey and having Fozz-E with us for his life. Jake even saved my life several times, I owe that precious soul so much. Life is not the same with him gone, or the greetings when I got home and he reminded me how special he was and that nothing else mattered but food, water and a good belly rub.  
   The top picture is a a good representation of how I see myself. A frail looking front, but so many forget to look behind, and get attacked by that Wolf that I am. So much so anymore I live my name. I AM WOLF! I have started seeing people again. ( WITH MUCH PUSHING) One in particular is Jason. He is Leather like me and also Poz, which eliminates a lot of problems right off the bat. He is a signed Music Artist and a damn good one. I have been listing to his stuff for a long long time even before we started dating. I love him and more important I like him.  There is so much I still hide from him out of a defense reaction but it will pass in time. He had a lot of Demons to face before we could go foward and has for the most part. He is doing well and so am I. My one love left is the big Green thing that says Astro on it. I drive for a living and like to think I am a damn good one, not the best, but working toward it.  A prisoner of the  Highway means that Jason is learning first hand what a truckers widow is. It cannot be easy on him by a long shot. I try to help but, there is only so much I can do. 
 My leather side is full on never to be suppressed again. Jason is also Leather, thank god. The Wolf is on all the time and is no longer in the shadow. Screw with me and you may get Mauled. 
     Family is the same, they have there lives and I have mine. So nothing new there.
Here is sample of Jason's work. DAMN he is good. JAson's work  

Been to long once again

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Been to long once again

Well once again it has been months since the last posting. It was a weird time for me between then and now. Many ways still is. I am finding that I am not so much coming to terms with Thom,s passing as I am getting used to it. THe house is of course empty when I return from the road. Jake is still around but lives out at the camp while his Master runs the roads earning money for his and my food. The funny thing is about Jake, he will NOT go into that house anymore. When Thom passed that was it. Have to admit that Jake is doing better out there and is actually enjoying it a lot. Not bad for a 15 year old dog. I am going to try and get better at writing more and not just when I am feeling down. Today for example I started a 50 day trip. The trip is for a Broadway traveling company doing the show Avenue Q. Should be a lot of fun. Right now just deadheading out to Montana to meet them. THe show will finish up with me in Huntsville Alabama on or about April 23rd. So this should be fun.

Posted by Wolf at 8:36 PM