It seems as thought the person the world See's and who I am are once again two different things. I am so tired of being for all and not myself or one Man that will know what and who I am. The world I need to be in, that of the Leather and BDSM community is just not here in Tallahassee and will never be. The life here is one of responsibility not living or life. Today again, a special soul touched me, at my center. As a result he now has more of me as his. I believe now that since the first time we chatted, he began to cultivate me. His words his life, and the trust he has put in me for that he holds dear. Trust. I know without question that I can trust him with my life. Be as I need to be. and he will guide and help me re-learn what I have lost, and go further than I ever dreamed possible. I have the hope that he would make it so that even if the obvious signs where not there, collar, his mark, that al around would know I am for him.
He keeps alive in me that which has until recently, beenkept tightly controled and only let out rarely. I have always been myself but reserved. He allows the freedom that I am always me and do not hide it. Now the begged question is how do i go from here, and become his