Wondering

I am fearing the fact I may have an answer to why the behavior of Tom has been as such. I have had my turn with this damn virus for the past year and half. I fear it may be Toms turn to face this and now I know why he has been over doing it. We shall see and I know that it would mean he juat cannot be with just one, but I hope I am wrong. I hope the behavior of late is because he is just him. Not because he is comensating that he may not be able to soon. It is amazing how this damn diease can affect every aspect of ones life, and those around them. Again I hope I am very very very wrong and that he is OK and not about to face an episode. Please God not him he has been through enough in his life, his first bought, his MOm's cancer and death. Then my almost passing away..twice. We shall see I guess.

Just rambling

Well Slow season has been that. However as you can see by the decor in the picture, not dead. Sitting in small town South Carolina.

One thing about traveling so much that drives a body crazy....DOWN TIME! As long as there is a way to get around it's o.k. , still to much time to think though. When the mind is allowed to wander it is truly amazing on what will bubble to the surface. However, the mind will unmistakably protect itself at all cost if it think you as a person cannot handle it. I have been for several years now, trying to recover a chunk of time I am missing. Lately as The attempt is made, the nightmares have been unreal. So as I rethink this, I wonder if I should really attempt this without help. Ten years is a big chunk of time to be missing. I have bits and pieces, but none from Boston, just Florida on Alligator Point. There I was always at peace and relaxed. So this leads to the question..WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED. the time from 76 to well into 84 is blank. Again,except for Florida. Linear time in my memory begins with me being at Logan Airport leaving for Europe the first time.After that, it is as life began. makes me wonder. This could also be the head aches I am having afte these nightmares. Who knows I guess I will have to see