Ok I guess

Well I am sitting in a hotel room as usall for these days. I do mis my truck on nights like this. It was atruck I was sleeping in, but it was my space and my bed every night. My clothes in there own place and my food in the fridge I am still feeling like I am on my own again. I really have no reason to but I do. We shall see what happens. I find I am ambivilent to this whole situation. That can be good or bad. I do not know yet. Wait and see I guess. I am stil finding myself looking at my life real hard and find I still have one mistake that I am having trouble dealing with. Not telling that special man how I really felt, and how I still feel. Even worse I am still afraid to be that honest with him and I should not be. IN Orlando tonight and remebering how nice it was with Tom on the road with me for those years. I really hope it happens again. I just for now feel like a roomate more than a Huswolf. I guess I am just feeling lonly in a crowded room type thing. Well time for bed