Getting better?

Well things maybe looking up. I guess the latest round of he is not sure has been a prolonged panic attack. I hope. He sems to have calme down since I have made very aware that Yes taxes on house have been paid, morgage is OK and the truck and car payments are OK. Especially with me working my skills again. He panics when it looks like we might not be able to hold on to these thingds. He relizes that he has a choise if I stop working(die) he looses it all and he most likly doesnot like that. Neither would I. I am worried because he has had all the symtoms of a small stroke. The Dr. has scheduled him for a whole battery of tests. I am hoping that theyfind nothing more than the usall AIDS problems. We willdeal with what happens when it does. As always time to just wait and see....again.When do I get  live MY life for a change. I seem to be living other for them. Oh well just being bitchy I guess, I am a bit of  a drama queen sometimes. I should just shut up now and face whatever life throws at me. My life or others.