WEll! about time

Well to all those who said I really never had a reason to smile since I had AIDS.EAT THIS YOU BASTARDS!! Things are almost normal with my my life. Yea, I still have shots to take and pills but only twice a day. I am working at what  I do best, and what I love. DRIVING. I am a damn good one. This rant came about because of a conversation with old friends who think that because I am sick I need to stay home and be senseable. Translation, stay home and get ready to die. I WILL NOT! I am still living and I intend to until my heart stops beating ad I can no longer breath on my own. I no longer fear death. I donot welcome it, but I do not fear it. This is why I am on the road, because life is ment to be lived, not to excist through. I intented to drive,Camp,(both kinds Bruc) and just love life and my husband. Thing will always be tough in life. God said it would be worth it he never said it would be easy. I hope .check that. know there is something better on the other side. I can feel those that will be there with me from this life. I ay preced them but I will be there for them. I know this to be true. The certainty comes from laying in a bed 9 months ago feeling my body getting ready to shut off. I began to get visits from freinds and family, even Sebastian, my Basset. They came to tell me it would be OK. NOt that I was going to die, but it would get better. I do not know when it will happen but I know I will be met by family and Friends. Live my friends, LIVE. It is worth it.